Weeds 雑草

The path along the ground is overgrown.
I search amongst the weeds but it is not there.
Is there but one rose amongst these briars?
It cannot not be. or is it possibly the wrong season?
My shoes vanished awhile back when they were outgrown.
I stray from life's path to seek a new pair.
The shops I stray to are all full of liars.
I don't speak to speak. while seeking a reason.
~"the don't ask me, it's only 6am now" rambling

It might be safer to ignore the above ramblings, but putting that aside I have announcement to make. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!! - to my Dad!

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追っかけられる夢 Chasing dreams

Just for my friends to know I was able to accomplish something today I haven't done in about 9 months. I played the piano with a passion. I took all might sheet music with me to school and for about 2 hours just hammered the keys. I feel kind of bad because all my past memorization is pretty much gone. However my fingers find themselves fast becoming comfortable with past songs. I mostly did finger exercises but it's a start. I intend to play at least once or twice a week, if possible.

I am starting too many powerpoint projects. I have to do one for the computer class I am taking. It will be about my home town, Omaha! I have also started a short one detailing usage of various internet based tools for learning Japanese such as rikaichan. Beyond that I will be doing a picture based one for my presentation about "mochi" which I can only really start after I have begun the research.

The final project is for Daisai the movie (http://www.daisaimovie.org/). It was a project started last year at the Fall Matsuri at Shizuoka University to be about the festival itself. I somehow end up on it from what I understand, mostly because I ended up on stage with the karate club during the festival. My project is to create a presentation to introduce what the movie is all about. I cannot start, of course, until I have seen the movie, which will happen tommorrow.

夢の分析は面白いと思う。　　申し追っかけられる夢がよく見たら生活の中でなんか不安があるみたい。　それはそうだと思う。　小さい頃「４歳」から１１・１２歳ぐらい蜘蛛が追われている夢をよく見てた。　　普通にその夢の背景はピラミッドの中だった。　いつも逃げている僕は部屋から次の部屋まで永遠に走っていたのは続けた。　ある日同じ夢が起こっていたけど今度意思を固めた僕は振り向いて攻撃した。　　その大きくて黒い蜘蛛を手で壁に投げた。　　その蜘蛛は一発で殺すこと出来なくてこれを終えてしまう方法を探そうと思っていた。　その時僕がいた部屋の配置がいきなり分かってきた。　　部屋の真ん中広いプールがあった。　逃げている夢中していたからその部屋に入った時見えなかったかもしれない。　でも周りが分かってきたから考えずにその気絶され蜘蛛の体を取ってプールに投げた。　　青かったプールは真っ黒になった。　墨のようになったみたい。　　今でもそういう黒い水が入ったプールの部屋に夢の中で訪ねてしまっている。　　そういう部屋に現れたら起きるまで僕の戦った日を思い出してしまう。　　不思議だと思うけどなんと思う？

日本語。。Japanese

おす！
久し振りなので日本語でポストしようと思っていた。　三ヶ月間だけは残っているみたい。　九月の末ぐらい帰らなきゃならない、アメリカに。　　ちょっと悩んでいるかな。。本当に帰りたいかどうか分からない。　勿論家族に会いたい。　でもね、帰ってから日本語を学ぶ為の時間は少なくなっちゃと思う。　　希望は帰った後日本語能力試験を合格出来る能力はもう身に付けた。　　でも今の所沢山読めるけど創造するのはまだ難しい。　それより僕の弱点は聞き取るのは弱点になっている。　どうしてか？　えっと、僕だったら見るのほうが聞くより分かり易い。　漢字が見られるから。　　漢字を見たら意味が大体与えられるけど。。。　　　どうせ・とにかく　まだ勉強しているところだから大丈夫　ただこのヶ月もっと上手になるしかない。　　　　負けずに頑張る。

雨、雨、雨。　梅雨が始まったみたい。　　今日ずっと雨が降ってきた。　　そして明日も降水率は高い。　いや、僕は天気官じゃないんだけど日本へ来てから天気を知るのはちょっと大事にしているようになってきたみたい。　雨だったら学校へ行く為に準備しなきゃならないから。

め、つまらない話ばかりしているのは　御免。

蜘蛛が好きじゃない。　エイリエンみたいな種類が会館で増えている。　でも日本だから殺しては駄目かな。　　もう一匹の命を消したけどやっぱり僕の部屋に侵入したから。　　他の蜘蛛の存在を見過ごすつもりだけど寝ている時蜘蛛に会いたくないね。　

皆はパイレット三番目もう見た？　スパイダーマン３？　両方は最高だと思っている。　　ジャックは相変わらず面白かったけど猿は確かにピーナツが大好きだね。　　うん、ジャックと言う猿について話している、"The undead monkey(ゾンビなので死ねない猿)。" 　スパイダーマン３だったら僕の一番スパイダマンの敵が出たから凄かった！　ベノムだ　　ま、たぶん黒が好きだから。　　是非時間があったら見てください！！

寝るつもりだからこれ以上今今日書かない。　お休み、また！

Mama まま

This is gonna have to be blitz posting. Lets see. I had a really cool experience Saturday night with a bunch of my friends. Ramu, Kazu, Takuma, Kumiko, Takenouchi-sensei, Steve, and Ouji. We went and did Karaoke at a "Snack" place. I am not sure what exactly the word "snack" when written in Japanese is supposed to imply but all of us filled up a small cubby hole called Kurumi "sunakku"(snack!). There while being served snacks and beverages by a single "hostess" everyone lovingly refers to as Mama the group enjoys singing.... well something like that. Given we are here in Japan and there is a "right" ritual for practically everything in this situation you are expected to sing at "Mama's pace."
Not sure exactly what that means but given the evening and the situation it would have been best if I had a repertoire of Japanese love ballads, enka or the like. However, American brat that I have become is my Japanese repertoire is limited to a few random Japanese songs and bands like B'z, Asikun, and various female singers songs that I wouldn't attempt to sing. Despite this lacking I was able to pull some good B'z songs and an old classic that we call Sukiyaki in English. It's Japanese title is "ue wo muite" ("turn to look upwards" or something along those lines.)
Which if you actually know the song's lyrics its really depressing and not what you think would be good for what is usually a "live it up" experience.
While I am distracted some other songs I like to sing at Karaoke(english they may be) are Eminem - Lose Yourself, Styx - Roboto, Snow - Red Hot Chili Peppers, .. . etc. Before I get too far off topic and can no longer resurface upon the path.
I mention the song selection seems to be important with "Mama's pace" but I think that is only the preperatory step. The next step is when you sing, you must apply a proper attitude. That is stand up, sing from the heart (no wimpy singing... full lungs kind of thing) and above all try and involve Mama in the song. I am glad Karaoke is such a fun simple thing. Although, trying to sing for someone else was kind of fun. I made the mistake of trying to Sing "Lonestar - I'm Already There." Boy, I sang it my way alright, didn't know it had all those lyrics for one, and I found I certaintly don't have that country twang at all, for two. But if you just act like you know what you are singing no one will say anything. Mainly because everybody in my group doesn't listen to country. :)

Okay, well now that I have embarressed myself by admitting to singing these songs I can continue on and switch topics.

zzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Falls asleep at the keyboard.

... ... ... ... dotテンてん店点天展槇纏

I think it is about time I posted agin.. agen.. . a-gain... again, before I forget how to spell again.

Then I forgot what I wanted to talk about.

I'll remember eventually. So, until that time comes I will just continue to type and let you all know that I really haven't been doing anything lately. I have had to come to terms with Statistics. I was getting sick of actively trying to evaluate my reasons for decisions on a weekly scale. Hoping I could just get a clear understanding of where I am going and then bounce off that whenever necessary. Kind of like a search for moral truth instead of a pragmatic wandering. So, I am taking this current time to not proceed without a solid view for my remaining months in Japan.

Well, wether or not you needed that little bit of information or not I remembered what I wanted to say.

I was wrong about the lack of Thunderstorms... we had one yesterday. Nice and loud and electrical. Boom, Zap... Thwoooooom! It was awesome. I didn't go anywhere so it didn't bother me.

Also, a massive important sighting.. well not really but it was weird. I saw 4 helicopters in Shizuoka all at the same time. This is weird because it's the first through fourth helicopters I have seen in Japan. They looked military, but were mostly just black. I originally was confused as to whether something had happened or not, but the guy at the local curry shop gave me a different insight. They were possibly just doing drills for earthquake rescue or something like that.

I haven't finalized my thoughts on what to do for my time that remains here in Japan. Definitely want to get out of Japan what I can, but don't want to be stressed out either.

Laters ya'll